Have you ever been SO Angry…SO Hurt that you felt NOTHING could make it go away?
That’s how I feel now.
I try to move on…I try to focus on today.
I Drown myself in my Kids and it’s still there, gnawing away at me…Poisoning me…Corrupting and Decaying me from within…
And All because I Trusted. All because I Believed. All because I Loved.
How I Wish that Then I had put God First. Made Him my Number 1!
How I Wish that I Had Him First! If only I could drown myself in Him. Then I KNOW I wouldn’t have all of THIS!
I am trying. I Try. Just not hard enough and I KNOW this.
I Pray that I am Stronger, more Resolved.
Dear Lord, Help me to Make you First.