#1’s Help Needed

Have you ever been SO Angry…SO Hurt that you felt NOTHING could make it go away? 

That’s how I feel now. 

And try as I might, and Pray as I may…It just won’t GO AWAY!

I try to move on…I try to focus on today. 

I Drown myself in my Kids and it’s still there, gnawing away at me…Poisoning me…Corrupting and Decaying me from within…

And All because I Trusted.  All because I Believed.  All because I Loved.

How I Wish that Then I had put God First.  Made Him my Number 1! 

How I Wish that I Had Him First!  If only I could drown myself in Him.  Then I KNOW I wouldn’t have all of THIS!

I am trying.  I Try.  Just not hard enough and I KNOW this. 

I Pray that I am Stronger, more Resolved. 

Dear Lord, Help me to Make you First.

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  1. Amen to that…And Lord God I pray for my friend also … as you know that I too have a very recent memory of a moment that you spoke to my spirit, and I ignored the message you gave me. Even as I still pray to you this day for your forgiveness of my not choosing you at that moment, of all times. I also pray that you will forgive, address, correct, and still honor my friends prayer, for whatever it is that is bothering her. Let her forgive herself, and heal her hurting in this area Lord, and help her through to the other side of this thing. In Jesus name I ask Lord, Amen.

    God Bless you
    paul

    By the way, sorry I missed you on the site last night. But please drop in and check more often. See you then.
    paul

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      1. Estoy de acuerdo contigo, es muy dificil no enojarse, pero ” CUIDADO ” cuando nos enojamos decimos cosas que luego antes de un segundo nos arrepentimos de decir y eso ya no se puede remediar.
        Lo que más queremos es lo que más ofendemos !!
        Pido mucho a Dios y al Espíritu Santo nos ilumine que tengamos paciencia y fortaleza de aguantar y NO ofender a nadie, (muy dificil ) que los amemos como Dios nos ama a nosotros.
        Mi problema… Que al contestar ofendo, Pedro me ha dicho que no le gusta mi manera de contestar, yo no lo siento, pero él si, me duele aunque no lo creas, de la misma forma Nene me dice que hablo muy feo, y yo no lo siento. Dios me dé licencia de enmendar mi lengua y mis contestaciónes.
        I love you, sigue adelante, me siento muy orgullosa de tí mihja, lo que haces y seguiras haciendo SDQ.
        El Espíritu Santo te siga iluminando siempre.
        Mis bendiciones para uds.
        Recuerda que los quiero mucho mucho !!!!!
        Tu mami.

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      2. Gracias, Mami…

        Te lo agradezco. Sé que siempre cuento con ustedes.
        Y TODOS tenemos tantos defectos, lo importante es reconocerlo y tratar de enmendarlo…

        Solo queda pedirle A La Virgen de Guadalupe que nos ayude a ser como ella, humilde pero fuerte, dulce y noble pero enérgica…Y por supuesto Pedirle al Espiritu Santo que nos Ilumine Siempre…

        I Love You, Mom!!! ❤

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