Not Wanting or Able to Breathe…

Discernment…

I feel a huge “hueco, un vacio” in my Soul…

It is a deep, dark abyss…

For the longest time I was riding high…I was riding the wave and felt that Nothing, No One! could bring me down…

Now, I float, face down, ebbing with tide…

What happened?

Más aun que ya no estan mis Hijos aqui…

My heart has once again been torn out of my chest, beating, bloody, pulpy, raw, red…

I keep waiting for that day…

The day that it will all change, that she will know, that my Beautiful Pumpkin Princess will see….

The day that my Handsome boys will be “allowed” to stay with me…

One day…

Lord, not MY, but Your Will be done…

What is in THEIR Best Interest Always…

Red…

Raw…

Soaked in Salty Waters…

Ebbing, Face Down…Not wanting, not Able to Breathe…

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