These just-shy-by-one-day two weeks have been quite interesting, to say the least.
I have known for a while now that my current place of employment is not fulfilling my needs.
Now the above statement may sound selfish, and I apologize for that. What I do not, however, apologize for is the desire to utilize the gifts that the Lord has entrusted me. Sadly, I am not doing that, not even with the time I spend volunteering at my Parish, STJW.
I know all too well that my gifts are not being utilized, are not growing, are being wasted at my current employment.
I am a passionate individual…in case you had not yet noticed 😉
I am a person who truly believes that One Person can and should make a difference.
I am an Idealist that is grounded in the harshness of Reality.
I am a the type of person that needs to Love what they do. Aren’t we all? I realize that there are those that can work for years at something they detest and still excel.
Do not misunderstand me here, I possess an invaluable work ethic that was given to me by my family. I will work at what need be to provide for my family. I have.
I worked full-time while going to school full-time. All this while trying to be the Best Mom I possibly could to my Three Gorgeous and Beloved Babies. It was not easy, but I accomplished obtaining my Degree with as little debt as I could, maintain a 3.86 GPA, and actually have a place to sleep at night, well, when I did 😉 Those late shifts followed by opening shifts mixed in with Essays and Papers that were due, sleep was not really possible, as I am sure we all know.
In the Mommy Department, I failed. I know. I was not there as much as I should have. I was only there as much as I could. I was not providing the means they needed to thrive, but my Family always helped to ensure they had the basics. I was not nor am I yet, perhaps never will be, the Best Role Model, but that’s why God became Man! We have Him to Model ourselves after!
I am not trying to wash my hands clean. I am trying to make myself feel a little bit better, I will admit. But believe me, I did the BEST I possibly could. I have Never, EVER stopped Loving my Babies nor will I ever! They are MY BABIES ♥ They were stuck with a Sorry, Sinful, Fallen Creature for a Mother, but a Mother that no matter what, will always Love them and be there for them in any way that she possibly can…
But as usual, I digress…
Below is a Novena that some Amazing Catholic Blogger’s are doing. You can find them at Catholic Blogger’s Network.
I am sharing here for two specific reasons.
One, so that you too can Pray it for yourself or for anyone in need, the CBN is praying it for all those Catholic Blogger’s that are looking for employment.
And Two, so that I can remember to do it! Hold myself Accountable.
Without further ado: